Wednesday, February 2, 2011

THIS IS TODAY


ICE! Yes, today is ice day here, and I am not liking it. Yesterday was a few inches of snow, and last night we got an inch of ice. You can't shovel it, you just break it and then pick it up. I do a little bit and then am exhausted! Try to help the DH out, but this is a tough one. I am so ready for spring. Punxatawny Phil says it is right around the corner.

I wanted to take a minute to address what is going on with me. I have not been to wordy lately, I really don't know what to say anymore. I guess...er, I know I am depressed. The god news is that I am really into making jewelry these days, but not really any art. I am scheduled to start a new treatment called Ivig infusion, to give my body new and good antibodies. It takes 2 days in a row once a month. Each day is 5 to 6 hours long. The past 2 weeks I had to cancel because of snow because it takes over an hour to get there. I have to do this for 4 months. As if I am not aggravated enough, my hours were cut at work, 20 hours less a month, and this will impact me greatly. I have worked at my place for 26 years, it has never been so bad. So I have been concentrating on my etsy shop to increase my income a bit, and January was a pretty good month for me. I am scared in many ways right now. I have to still go for more tests, and I am tired. I don't want to drive people away because of my illness talk, so I haven't been talking a lot.
So that's it. I am sorry . I want to be in a better mood. At least I am creating...hopefully I will snap out of this soon. I need some sunshine, and flowers in the yard, that would be the perfect prescription!

20 comments:

Effie said...

Ice yuk! Hope both the ice and yourself improve soon!

Karen Larko said...

Keep thinking Spring Sharon! Sorry you're feeling so down. Hope you're better soon.
The jewelry you've been making is beautiful!

jessememan said...

sending you a big cyber hug!!!

Terri Kahrs said...

We're covered in ice too! What a terrible storm. At least we didn't lose power.

Sharon, so sorry to hear that you're feeling down. Please know that angels and prayers are surrounding you. I'm sending a HUGE, warm hug your way! Terri xoxoxo

steufel said...

Oh Sharon, so sorry to hear that! Hope you will be better soon. A big hug from Germany!

Steph said...

The weather and all may be nasty but I hope you'll feel much better soon, dear Sharon...warms hugs...

SummersStudio said...

Sharon, I have been thinking of you a lot over the last few weeks. Wondering, especially, how this rather horrible weather is affecting your health. Now, your work hours. Oh, sweet Sharon, I am sending huge hugs and warmth and wishes for a much better tomorrow.

creativelenna said...

sharon, just know that how you are feeling is okay. It is certainly understandable and how ever you need to deal with it is fine too. If you need to talk, please talk! If you don't want to or can't, then don't!
I love seeing your jewelery or anything else you want to share. Just go with the flow. If the treatments take time and you can't do everything you want to, it will still be okay. Hopefully this treatment will be just the thing for you and you will find have more energy & time before long. In the meantime, take your life as it is, in the best way that you can!! enjoy, scream, cry, laugh & live. The bottom line is those who love you want you to be how ever you need to be, truly!! xo sending love, lenna

~*~Patty S said...

Ice is not good at all!
Hang in there dear Sharon. I think you are entitled to feel what you're feeling and express it in any way that feels right.
Praying that your healing comes sooner than later...I admire your creativity so much on all fronts!
You also express yourself beautifully here.
Sending every good and special wish you way Dear One!
oxo

roc said...

ice stinks. not feel well stinks too. i am sorry to hear you are not feeling so hot. i will keep you in my loving thoughts and pray for you.

stregata said...

Sending you all my love, Sharito. Never mind about talking if you don't want to.

Esther said...

soon it's spring, and with it a rebirth for you Sharon. please , believe! romizous!

Lesley Edmonds said...

Bless your heart. In my thoughts and prayers. Spring is nearly here! Hang in there!
love and (((HUGS)))
Lesley x

Susan Marling said...

Hugs,good thoughts and prayers going out to you.

Marie Lost Bird Studio said...

Dear Sharon,
if you don't feel like saying much
I think we all understand.Please hang in there and I hope you are feeling better soon.
Sending you big hugs and a prayer.
Marie

Dorthe said...

Sharon, dearest-

So much to figt with- so hard for you, friend,--I hope you can start the new treatment without further delay, -and that it will be the good thing-making you well-and feeling better.And hoping, too,-the tests will give positive results.
I know how you feel about being quiet, when depressed- and sweet-you take your pauses- we are here when you comes back- and in my world- it is alwayes ok, to speak the bad stuff loud, too!
I`m sorry for you, that you had to loose houers on work, too--but I`m sure your beautifull jewelry will have lots of admireres and costumers for buying.
Sharon- warm thoughts from me- and warm hugs,too-
Dorthe

Mellisa said...

Sending you thoughts of sunshine :)

shoulderache said...

I send you hugs & love!

Hang in there, you'll make it!

thekathrynwheel said...

Oh dear, bad things always seem to coma along at once. Hope you feel lots better soon. Spring will surely help :-) Kate x

Cindy said...

Sharon, you have been on my mind as lately...I've been wondering how you've been. I'm sorry to hear you are feeling so down but it is so understandable considering all your'e going through - the cutbacks now and your health issues. Your jewelry is so beautiful, and is a great distraction while facing such a difficult time. We all love you and are praying for you!

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